These were all brand new Insulin syringes. One of them was in my pocket as I was minutes away from going to put it to use. I am not a diabetic. I am am an addict.
Today I'm heart broken, but I'm also proud none the less. I'm proud because for one of the first times in my life I proved if to no one else myself I am committed to seeing myself free from the chains of addiction.
Being an addict is crazy. It's also an illness similar to those who have diabetes or cancer. I didn't go where I planned to when I left my place with a brand new point in my pocket. I also beat the urge to go give them to someone who needs them (that's my subconscious' addict mind for you). I will again in the future carry points to give to those who need them, but for today I saying think I would have said no. Addiction is lonely and teaches all addicts loneliness needs company. I destroyed these brand new cleans in order to share myself I'm a free man.
The reason why I can't discuss, but it was the biggest reason I've ever said no to. Thanks again Steemit! Steemit and Steemians saved my life and continue to do so.
Still clenching my teeth,
AdamRant
Well, Adam, let's hope this is the first of many tough choices that go in favor of your future, my friend.
https://steemit.com/steemt/@adamrant/why-don-t-whales-like-me-steemit-i-only-eat-meat-that-s-bad-for-my-heart
Thank you very much. My mind is very well set. But I need to correct you. The first choice wasn't tough. Steemit, and I don't exaggerate, saved my life. The rest is making choices in order to avoid situations with inevitably only tough decisions left to choose from. I appreciate you taking the time to acknowledge the severity of what today was for me.
man, you are making a great choice I pray for you your life is worth it
Thanks! Very much! Sorry for the delay.