LACKING EMOTIONS OR HAVING EMOTIONS....WHICH ONE IS MORE DANGEROUS??

Hello dear friends....Hope you are enjoying life the same way as me......

Do we ever realise where we are heading to?Why is it that we are behind things that actually are just small parts of life but have become more important than life for us.Is it something that we are really gonna be proud of when we will be in a state of self analysis......a state of analysing what we have ....what we have given to the world that has given us so much....how many smiles we brought to the sad faces and how many tears we have wiped.That will be the time of real examination.The examination where we will be evaluating ourselves and believe me only few of us will be able to pass this exam.Most of us will be regretting the things done in life.For some that time comes much earlier in life whereas for some,it comes at the death bed when it is too late.

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A student(brother) junior to me in the college got a deadly bike accident.He was driving without a helmet at 12 at night in a state where he was completely overtaken by alcholol.He was a lively guy and believed that he should try everything in life...So even though his parents and friends repeatedly told him not to drive bike when he is drunk ,he never seemed to listen.But unfortunately,he hit a pole while driving at an extremely high speed without helmet and in a drunken state and he is in such a bad condition that is very difficult to explain just with words.He remembers no one from his family or friends.He has completely lost his memory and had to undergo so many surgeries for reconstructing his body but still he looks completely different than before.Half of his body has paralysed and his eyes are just something that you can't look into or else you will be frightened.Everytime his mother sees any student with the doctor's white coat ,she can't stop her tears and remembers her to be a doctor son who now is in such a helpless state.
My friend took care of this boy while he was admitted in the hospital as they used to live together in the same flat.My friend is a tough guy and he is also a so called bad boy among the students in the college.One day while I was reading,he came to me and sat beside me.He told me that he thinks that he is abnormal. I just laughed out loudly as I had no clue what he was talking about.Then in a more serious accent he told me......
You know what....I am so afraid.I am afraid that I have lost that human feeling.I don't feel anything .Each person who saw the boy in that condition would shed tears even without knowing him but I didn't feel anything.I am afraid that there is something really wrong with me because a human can't be as heartless as me.
I didn't know how to comfort him.There was this 6 feet tall tough guy asking me to help understand his emotions.I could do nothing except comforting him with my words.

I used to be a very emotionally person .I don't know if I was abnormal or it was others who were abnormal but even small things touched my heart in no time.I would just want to go and follow what my heart told me to do .I would want to listen to others and give a helping hand whenever some one needed it.For this behaviour,many a times I had to listen so many bad words .People would compare me with my friends.If he/she was not bothered,why were you?Why do you want to show everyone that you are someting very special or there is no one like you in the world?Why can't you act normally?I started being so much conscious about those comments that I started to supress the real me.Even though I would feel like doing something,I would hold myself back so that I would prevent myself from hearing those words.Whenever I would share my feelings with someone,they would consider it as a torture.They would make an agreement with me that they would like to continue the friendship only if I stopped sharing emotions with them.At that point of time,I was too afraid to lose my friends so I started keeping everything to me only.I was always expressing my true self whereas for people,it became a matter of laughter.For this emotional restraining they had imposed upon me,they became far and far from my heart and I decided to behave the way they wanted me to behave.
But now,I realise that was the greatest mistake of my life.My sensitivity and my emotions were something that I needed to value much more than I did.We all are different people.I might also have problems with them for not being emotional and sensitive.So I decided not to kill my feelings and emotions that make me realise that I am a human.... just for the sake of approval of some bunch of friends.
It was the same tough guy who made me realise that I am absolutely fine.I have no illness and it is human nature to feel happy,sad,excited and depressed.When there were people who were to be my friends on the terms that I lose all my emotions,I was uplifted by a person who I had never even talked to very well.This is the power of emotions.If your emotions are not addressed well,you should walk away without a second thought.
Please value your emotions and sensitivity.Because you never know someone in the world might be afraid that he doesn't have them at all.Now let's hear some lines about a man I saw yestrday........

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