Enough To Leave Some Behind

in #personal2 months ago

I struggle with an idea for the book. I wanted to explore male loneliness. So I thought I could thumb my nose at relationships online and AI. The Imagination was less creative, more vulgar there. So the process of procrastination continues, taking shortcuts and delaying the writing work. But what if instead, a guy tries to solve everything with AI, alienating him from his friends? Could be the next big thing, it developed halfway.

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Auction's On

They're flipping sketches from an artist lessen known for his illustrations. I couldn't claim Michael Jackson wasn't an artist, but he recorded. Who knew? Apparently, he had a gift for illustration. Lately, my talents are long hours of gaming and anxiety over appearances. Bidding for small silver wares assuaged my sartorial fears, adding personal style I find timeless. Are auctions the best way to flip stuff? Maybe. In the past few months, I spent a few hundred dollars on auction wins. I still have bills. I still owe college debt. But the grind doesn't have me down, thanks to some finer reminders of abundance.

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Produce A Legacy

I was enjoying a freestyle featuring the late rapper, Big L and Jay-Z. Out of curiosity and respect for the skill, I searched online for more about Big L. I must admit I have trouble reading about how the man lost his life at 24 years old. I was only 2 years old when he passed, leading to a somewhat natural ignorance to his work and discography. The rare finds from him are results from years of his efforts, cultivated by practice and driven by a love of the art. With yet another remind that our time is limited, I feel the tug to leave something behind- anything. These days, I want more than quick sentences to a blog, but enthusiasm wanes. What do you do? Do you tell the work that they've put on some weight and would go a long way towards exciting you if they put in some effort to get it off? I write to find the answers. I don't have any. Long story or short, the moral is the same: you get what you put in. Off to dust the keyboard and push buttons til' I get something.