Levels upon levels. Presence is so important to be in the moment. It took years of destructive drinking before it stopped working. Then the pain set in. It was time to change or die.
So it is that some of us must go through the fire before we are able to see the toxicity, and then become present. :)
So very beautifully put @inalittlewhile. In fact I think this is actually the case for most of us, just each in our own unique way... :)