I am going to answer you later - over night I got sick. So I will take a nap now. Again, I am touched by you. You're as much a sister as a sister can be.

Good morning,

finally, the influenca got me and I am in bed. I want to thank you for your sincere answer which shows the depth of your feelings. You gave beautiful pictures of what is the middle ground. Yes, "media" is not designed to transport messages which serve that and you are right, it actually is the wrong term.

To answer your question: I am a social worker - it is not lucrative to work as one. I don't care so much about money as I should. More than the money I am concerned about having someone to talk to and to guide me when cases get tough and penetrate my shield. I do not work fulltime, in fact I am working as much hours as I have clients. Not every session is an hour, on Wednesdays I talk to a max. of 5 clients in 3 hours. That is tough, almost all people do have difficult biographies. I would love to send them all to church or to talk to their spiritual guide as well. Or at least to one who can give guidance. There is no place, people do not trust their pastors or priests anymore and also they weren't raised that way. Even I do not talk to Christian churchgoers. Which maybe I should and to overcome my prejudice I will make attempts to come closer. I would like to have scholarly exchanges, theologian discussions attached to my work, I would like to be guided. I need, so to speak, a master, which knows more and has more experience in the field of how to deal with human suffering.

Yes, "Our subjects are birth and therfore death" - I feel so consoled by your words and so understood. That means a lot to me. Thank you.

Yesterday I listened to a "Dharma talk" and heard the expression: "the glass is already broken". And I thought: Yes, why is that even a surprise? The moment we are born the moment death is determined. The glass is already broken and will not survive. What is all that fuzz about? But of course, this is for others an eye-opener. So many things are already clear to me that I find it hard to believe, they are not clear to others.

You see how words and symbols got violated and twisted. I see that, too. Language itself is a weapon. It's also as weak as it is strong.

Modernity has this problem that everything is taken care of. But when everything is taken care of, nothing is taken care of. Too many choices on the individuals shoulder and what is perceived as freedom of choice became the chain of a blockage. A world without religion or ethics is a lost world. But in taking this abused word into my mouth, I always will be misunderstood.

I know you have a deadline. We don't have to split. I find it valuable to stay in touch with you. We can test our sisterhood if it's also willing to survive outside the open realm into the intimate one.
Find me in the chat under the same username. Or on discord, if you've got an account.

Also, I am not forbidding myself to check once in a while your blog or even leave a comment. But I will not actively blog myself.