444 lbs, 31 st 10 lb, 201KG. It doesn't matter how you write it, it's still the same.
If I don't do something now I seriously believe I'll be dead in 6 months. I'm struggling to understand how i let myself get here. I haven't yet decided whether or not to include a picture of myself to show the state I have let myself get into.
It is all my own fault. I've been spiraling down for years. The last time I saw my doctor I was 6 stone lighter and he told me I was morbidly obese.
My health has been affected so much now. I have trouble walking as I get a bad back very quickly. Household chores have gotten difficult. Even basic things like using the bathroom is difficult. I rarely go out due to embarrassment and I disgust myself.
Part of me is thinking of accepting the inevitable ending I'm due but the part of me that's writing this wants to fight and reclaim my life.
I'm at a loss of what to do. I know that if I don't decide soon fate will decide for me.
I was at around 400 lbs a month ago. I was feeling the same things. I decided one day it was enough, downloaded an app and started counting the calories i was intaking. a month later i have lost 15 lbs and it gets easier every day. I am starting to regain mobility and esteem. There are tons of people who have been in your position that are willing to help and encourage you! You can do it if you choose!
Lose weight or die.
Up to you.
Good luck.