I was out and about earlier on the sunniest day we've had in a good while and although it was still cool, only about 17°C, the sun held some warmth which I took advantage of at the beach.
To say I needed a little sun on my body would be an understatement; it's been far too gloomy lately, untypical for a winter in my area which usually holds cold but blue sky days, and I was very glad to see the day turn into what was a rather awesome sort of day. Although, whilst the day was awesome, I was not.
Bad Company
I've been feeling somewhat pressured lately; it's a work thing. It's not that work is pressuring me, in fact it's the opposite; my company and incredibly happy with my performance and results - it's me putting the pressure on myself.
There's a few things in my private life that have added to the pressure as well and, when combined, the weight has piled on rather relentlessly. I've always driven myself harder than anyone else ever could and that's what I've been doing lately - just to keep up. I've been spread thinly across my commitments and it's taken a toll on my attitude and whilst I've taken steps to arrest it, sometimes that comes out in ways I'd rather it not.
Today I was on the phone with someone I value and I wasn't very good company.
I shouldn't have made the call, but I did in the hope the chat would snap me to attention, but it wasn't to be. I wasn't rude, or mean, disrespectful or abusive - I would have ended the call quickly if I thought I was - but I was bad company and the person on the other end deserved good company.
I ended the call rather quickly and I think the person on the other end was left feeling a little sad, and probably confused and helpless. It's not a good feeling for the person and it's not a good feeling for me to have been the cause of it. I regret making the call.
I apologize
My friend would read what I just wrote and probably want to slap me for it; good friends are like that. They can be open and honest with each other, not judgemental or critical and they understand and support rather than condemn and complain. I know my friend will just want to get to the bottom of why I feel as I do and, find how to help and move me forward but only I can do that. But to my friend, I apologize...And have sent the message saying so earlier today.
I'm fortunate to have some very good friends who care more than they should, understand when to push and when not to, and how to support me.
It's a difficult thing when on the phone though as body language doesn't translate and it's difficult also when the person themselves cannot actually make a difference no matter how much they want to. They know I'll be ok though, that I'll build an attitude-bridge over the chasm in front of me and get to the other side; I know I will also as I've done it many times before. It just takes time and effort.
It would be great if life was all blue skies and sunshine, but it isn't. It can be gloomy and it rains and it just fucken sucks at times...but it's all we have, life I mean. It's ok for it to be difficult as that teaches us how to evaluate and change as people and it also helps us appreciate the sunny days much more.
I hope you all have a great weekend and make the most of what you have, you deserve it.
Design and create your ideal life, don't live it by default - Tomorrow isn't promised so be humble and kind
The two linked tracks are from one of my favourite bands, Five Finger Death Punch.
Any images in this post are my own
17 degrees, That's a Scottish summeer :OD
I quite like Five Finger Death Punch. Been ages since I listened to them. We have those rough times don't we. Thats the great thing about friends is that they understand and you apologised too and often you don't have to but it all adds up to make it right.
Those are pretty stonking pics!
It'll be 22°C and sunny tomorrow (Sun)...and it's still winter. 🤣 I keep telling you to get down here.
Yeah man, I have some balls in the air, but I'm juggling those fuckers and haven't dropped any yet. I have my moments though. I'll admit I've been a little short on tolerance lately but I work hard to mitigate the effect that has on others. I think I'm doing an ok job mostly.
FFDP are a legit band, and do a lot or good work for veterans in the States so I like them for that also. Good music too.
Thanks for the comment on the snaps, I took some more which will emerge over time.
I always like seeing your snaps because of the masses of blue sky that you almost always have. It's bloody awesome.
I might run away to Australia. The missus need never know surely?
You and your curly moustache will be welcomed.
I hope you don't...
Lie Awake
Great track!
I mix a little progressive rock/metal, thrash, and power metal with my bluegrass and ska rotation.
A good mix. I think people need to have some diversity of interests and that extends to music. My tastes are quite varied also.
Being smart and very organized doesn't keep pressure from causing anxiety, something sometimes aging and diabetes can affect, among other things. You are not old, but there is still a lot of difference in the way stress affects a person at 30 and 40 and then after 50. I know sometimes it seems that multiple stressful things appear to come all at the same time. It's hard enough when there is just one stresser in your life, but having them come from all directions would drive anyone a bit mad, even if it is only temporary.
I know you know how to go walkabout to let some of it go, but maybe you are not doing that enough to keep your personal world balanced?
I don't know of course, but it's something to ponder.
I hope you get back to your happily thriving self real soon.
Love the photos btw, especially the rippling sand.
I'm glad you added, among other things. I mean, I have the first two issues but I'm hoping there's others also, one's I can work with.
I do...and I am not, you're right. The weather has been bonkers here, and I've got some things that will/may hold me here until they play out. That won't end well, but it'll allow for some freedom I guess.
Thanks for the compliment on the photos. I haven't been out and about as much as I'd like with my camera so it was good to snap a few. I did some macro today, some of which will be my next post. I think they turned out ok. Others will be the judge.
Also, thanks for your kind words; I'll be ok, I have no choice but to be ok, so it'll all work out.
This is the beautiful thing about good friendship...your friend probably understands how you're feeling and you sent an apology, I am sure that was accepted and perhaps in that moment, you needed to have the conversation. We're all human and we all have gloomy days, it just takes a bit of humanity to extend some grace to each other.
I hope you are going to have a much, much better time at work and you really need to go easy on yourself. I know that most people are their own worst critics, perhaps you need to extend that same grace to yourself as you would to someone else.
Beautiful photograph as well. Hope you feel better soon 🙂
I'm human, despite there being strong evidence to the contrary, and so do human things although I try not to do too many as humans do some terrible things don't they?
Humans do the opposite though, the really good things, so I try to more of that, including apologising genuinely when I need to.
Thanks for the comment on my photo...I'm not much of a photographer but sometimes the point and shoot method works out.
don't worry, I know ur friend understand u. me and my friend done such thing especially when both of us are having a busy day. but afterwards I'm sending y apology to her and we two ended up in a good terms again. plus, u can ask ur friend to go out if needed to. u can make a schedule and have a talk to ur friend about their problem. that wud be a big help for them
Thanks for your message. My friend called me an idiot for worrying that I'd offended her. I accepted it. We have a good relationship and it's strong, so no worries there. I was more annoyed at myself for allowing my mood to spill over.
Sometimes I tell myself I don't need friends, and then I realise I do. And then I convince myself I don't, and then I'm like maybe I just need new ones. Yet again I'm like for what? But life keeps showing exactly what and what I should have them for but I end up saying it's overrated, maybe acquaintances are enough. I mean I can't tell my friends everything for fear of being judged, so what's the point? Oh well, I guess there's more to friendships than telling. I hope I'm a great friend though.
I have a very small friends group but a lot of acquaintances, it's better that way. I prefer to keep most people at arm's length and that's helped uncomplicated matters over the years. I also like think I'm a good friend, as do you.
Yeah. People I actually refer to as friends are only but a couple or little more.
Very cool photo of the bridge,
I mean the first photo from the underside of the bridge.
You present an excellent attitude-bridge analogy for relating a problem you are dealing with. Everyone is supposed to build their "bridge" to solve a problem.
It will really lead a person to be in a better state.
Have a nice day.
Thanks mate, I'll confess though that it's not a bridge. It's a jetty that heads out into the ocean and then stops. It still works for the analogy though right?
Have a good weekend.
Our strength varies it's good you understand that you aren't a good company and I'm sure your friends love you same knowing that they know where your own strength lays and when it's on your strength areas your friends would enjoy your company.
I have a very good friends he doesn't like stories I call him a content listener and he calls me the detailed one and we flow. We're improving daily.
They always enjoy my company, this post is about not imposing my bad attitude on them whilst I'm feeling a bit low, not about them not liking my company.
Yes, I understood the message.
I hope you won't pressure yourself too much about work. I agree with you, life is not about the rainbows and calm days, because the storms might strike on us any time.
Anyway, I came here to ask if I could post a video in Outdoors and More Community, through 3Speak. Since I documented the experience by taking videos. I just want to ask first whether it is okay or no. Thank you in advance!
I get paid well to accept some pressure; it's up to me to balance it though and you're right, I've been applying a little too much.
If the video is about the community themes as per the posting guide and so on then that's ok, although if you could do a couple hundred words I'm more likely to curate it. I rarely watch videos without first understanding the basics of what I might find.
If the video is about you in the park in the middle of the city that's not what the community is about. The content of the video has to be strongly focused towards the community topics.
I already prepared a 300-word description about the video. It's a video of us swimming in the river near us, and I showed how to get there by walking, plus the surroundings. We were living near a mountain & river, so I tried to make a video showcasing them.
Sounds like a good one then. Thanks also for the preamble. I'm more of a reader than a video watcher so the text helps me understand whether I want to watch the video or not.
I also appreciate you reaching out and asking.
Awesome thank you so much for sharing ✨
No worries.
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The second half of your post... Well. I am fortunate to have a few of those. Very few!!! I do get those days too. Still learning how to deal and I'll have to admit, I hate when I hurt those I care about or when I'm the cause of the slightest discomfort. You enjoy your weekend too!!!
I think it's important to learn how to say sorry, and genuinely mean it. That goes a long way with friends..
Aye sir...
I was just listening to Five Finger Death Punch, Darkness Settles In (last night) I think I dreamed about that voice. The entire incident vanished with the morning.
Still.
Seriously, Galen. You are an overachiever when it comes to feeling bad for being a little bit human. Shhhhh! I hear you correcting me. Friends are so forgiving. I know that I want to be there for my friends when they feel like that. It pleases me to know they put that much trust in me that they share that part of themselves. I mean that in the best possible way.
Almost like a spouse, except more forgiving. In good times and bad, friends look at it much differently than you do. (is my guess)
Let go of it. You have apologized. Now breathe deeply and find Cleo. You need a pet. Noooo. She needs one. Seriously. Who doesn't?
You're right, as always. I am pretty hard on myself and I don't like taking advantage of people around me by dragging them down. It's a self reliance thing probably, that extended through most aspects of my life. I feel self conscious when people help, like I'm putting them out or something. You know? It's probably dumb and you can say so. 😊
I've got a lot going on, most of which I've not mentioned here, not will I. It probably seems I'm just being a big baby I guess, but I'm allowed to be right? Seriously though, it's just pressure, life pressure, and we all get it. I just have to navigate it. I suppose it's much like a mine field, one needs to tread carefully to get to the other side. I'm treading. Carefully.
I'm glad to hear you're a FFDP listener...You can't be as awesome as you and not be.
How would you like it if I didn't want to dump anything on you because I didn't want to drag you down? People don't think like that. Being a mother, I know that when I need help or when any of my kids need help, there is no shame in it and no, there is nothing babyish about it.
It's true, you will have to navigate it, but, just keep your head down and you'll be fine.
And yes. It is dumb and I don't mind telling you so.
I asked my sister if she liked FFDP and she had no idea WTH I was talking about. Hence the long hand on it. :)
G-dog just got told.
I feel like a naughty little boy. (A role I'm familiar with from past experiences!)
And again. I'm on a roll! 😂
If your sister knew who FFDP was I'd know the Swigle lasses were all brought up right...Alas, you must have added the awesome later on. 😁
This was a wonderful and much needed read for me, thank you for sharing!
I'm coming out of a long-term funk after a vicious campaign against colic- my youngest screamed the first 9 months of his life! This happened to coincide with the planning of my wedding, and renovations on our home. To say I was spread thin is an understatement! I can relate to the feeling of attempting to connect hitting a wall because of personal stress... I've had a few similar phone calls in the last few months!
Sometimes I'm a "bad time" too, and just like you my friends and family love me anyhow. Thank goodness for those lights in our lives that recognize it's all part of the journey :). Perspective is everything, and from an outside lens it seems you have an outstanding outlook! Thanks for the reminder that hard times are valuable too, duality outlines the beauty in life!
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