For some reason I was so convinced it was true. I was crying in my dream and all I remember is finding out, thinking about it and just grieving against a wall.
And then I woke up to a message he just sent in the family group saying he was gonna be away all week on a work trip.
Some thoughts about mortality
I've been worrying about my family's mortality ever since I decided to move out. I haven't done it but the thought of doing it makes me think that maybe I'll never see them again, or will see them again when they're so old that I'll be surprised about their changes. I don't even recognize myself sometimes when I do things to my hair/clothes/etc., so I imagine one day I may see the same thing with them.
My grandparents are all old, well past the normal life expectancy, even for their siblings, all gray, wrinkly and prone to illness. I know they'll be dying soonish. My parents are getting old. Soon they'll enter the same stage my grandparents are in. Many people in my family died middle-aged, so my parents are also approaching the higher end of their life expectancy.
I fear their death much more than I fear my own. I had never dreamt they were dead. I instead dreamt that a beloved uncle who died was back alive, and we talk about him being dead lol.
And now my dad is away, haven't seen him today, may not see him for a week. This is lame and sad.
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I get scared when I dream of loved ones dying. I end up waking up to pray for hours until I'm convinced that I've prayed enough. The funny thing is I never ever dreamt of my sister passing, but she did anyway. I still do not understand it.
:(
our dreams don't have a strict relation with reality, more like a subconscious processing of events, instead of some kind of meaningful divine or spiritual observation of our surroundings, so it's understandable that they're not trustworthy predictors of future events, but it's still something that feels very meaningful and close to us due to their nature of in-brain regurgitations of our understandings
We are living instances in a simulated deterministic world.
The instance is disposed after it fails to maintain itself (our death).
Our body cells degenerate with time, that's why we get old, brain cells are the awareness engine. With time, parts of your body get older, our cells always in a split process "meiosis", and withing each split the new ones are older (it is a lossy process).
With time and time, our organs deteriorates.
Our body is chained ecosystem, the first organ that starts to fails affects the other, until brain cells are affected => once it fails we are technically died.
e.g. old lungs organ failure, oxygen miss, brain cells die...
e.g. nervous system parts fails, you may have memory loss...
With hope and advancement of science, if we succeed to regenerate and refactor our organ in a continous awared biological process, death will be only a matter of a bad incident or an accident.
i want to do constant transplants of every part of my body to become immortal but sadly the brain can't be replaced without replacing the self, sad sad !