One ant`s job much harder ...

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For some time now I have been thinking that we believe that with excess pleasure we are happier, and it is the other way around, with little pleasure and with doing tasks little by little slowly like ant work, without trying to reach the goal, without looking for the supposed happiness, observing the landscape, slowly enjoying the process, that's when we are really happy.

This vertiginousness is completely unnatural, because the human body does not work like that, it requires progressivity, it has its own rhythm and beat. It is to enjoy the path, we allow ourselves to be more human.

Life has placed me several times in that space where, yes or yes?, I should slow down, it is very important to take care of myself and also take care of others in my environment.

I'm talking about this because the anxiety I was experiencing was generated by external factors.

In me another alternate job with the university where I am an advisor of postgraduate research projects; for 5 years, with two people we have been in charge of exporting to other countries, native Wayuu crafts from La Guajira, Zulia state, Venezuela.

I feel that I have the biggest burden, I am the majority owner of the enterprise, which together with two other people we carry out. The situation that often arises is that one of my colleagues is almost always absent, or she is on medical rest, or surgeries or vacations, so I end up absorbing double workload constantly.

The worst thing about this is that I am very self-demanding, too responsible, efficient, faithful to what I do (my own business), and I do not show that after work I am mentally exhausted, at the end of this work, I start with the second stress, my house, my husband and my other job at the University... Lollll.

I know I've been anxious because my lips shake a little when talking and my eyelids shake when reading and people tell me to take vitamin B-12 because suddenly I need it., ha, ha, ha and of course, what I have is stress and a lot of anxiety.

I think that the human being is not willing to adapt to this rhythm of life, of immediacy, of social networks, digital jobs, acceleration, pending tasks immediately, or forever, it is an addiction to pleasure or dopamine.

This post reflects a bit what has been happening to me for months, it is true that a life without purpose, with nothing to do, and no meaning can lead to anxiety, depression maybe, teaching, starting alternative businesses and being close to other people, is my emotional therapy to shake off anxiety.

We are all good at something, and we must discover that something because with that something I can help myself and do it with other people, I have also learned from my anxiety to discover that light at the end of the tunnel the creative part of my brain that is very important, creativity that I cultivate and helps me to be a better version of me.

Janitze.🌹