[Beatutiful Sunday] Open letter [internaldialogs] Patience

Mirrors on the way, life on the mute, but who can hear do, I see you are not satisfied.

Bro, sorry. Sorry, sorry for what I'll do. Or for what I've already done.

Since I saw you. I'm living a hell. It's not your fault eh. (You speak). You're saving me the use of Emojis, it's a pain in the ass to express things that are too pro-fundamental. For me EM is Emotion Messenger.

-> ? ok but get out of my way I got it with IM. Without the emo it doesn't mean anything. except that I'm laughing.

mammasitta - Credit image @dgmdynamics by @jnmaretau & @covermaker

Am I sure of myself? No, but playing with my doubts will give me a strength that no one will ever be able to stop because if I talk about it, it's already too late. Otherwise I wouldn't come and talk to you here in the middle of the scene well that's em31416re.

It's like: "You LOL comedian, if @manncpt type is massive weapons, man you're in a ubiquitous submarine." ... "you don't want to blow your cover I guess ^^". Yes, it is. Not funny to stay at the limit of the bearable.

I am Jean-Noël born from a french/austrian origins father and a mother of Indian origin, from a family of pedagogues... since obviously always because I've never learned anything...except new patterns to express the same stuff pff what a shitty ego, ...they call me Rajiv, they call me Jean, it's easier. They call me Natacha in the street, I'll turn around and enjoy the feint every time.

My brother says to me but no you are funny Chinese I do a shitty imitation and this idiot laughs.

Denying or playing on his identity what good is it, success makes you guilty. Sorry and thanks for the solidarity, I think that Kerry knew why, but he's too busy telling you to get busy and fight: when I go to the country, I might be older but I'll be called 'kid', but that's a dog's name fdp, I am a tdah/ ADHD *

*Adult ADHD symptoms. Has difficulty following a meeting, conversation, reading. Inattention errors at work, overreaction to sensory stimuli. Sometimes forgets to eat, sleep, or fails to perform if a subject or activity is of great interest.

I'm hyperactive 👀 it shows what ^^
I'm bipolar and my friends try to reinforce me by doing what destroys me, especially if I tell them without first diagnosing their personality...and these assholes they keep going until I can find the words it sometimes takes a lifetime...

I have as many personalities as I have personality traits, am I crazy or?

Credit photo: Rajiv by Olivier Lecointe.

It says: Yes, the Dr. of the Future of the Web will probably say... who is this socialhacker? One day he's hacking hearts like a guy lost on vacation, the other day he looks like he's full of ass, he even put on his badge "Dr. What a show-off", you know him? You've seen him on TV right? No. I'll say yes, it's too funny, am I a liar or do I have to have a little fun?

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I am hypersensitive. My name is Jean-Noël, Rakesh, does this make you laugh with a stupid joke?

I have always been against injustice. The use of perceived power. It's a little lame, isn't it? Even as a 3 year old I'm going to put you in your place fdp it revolts me even more I don't dominate anymore take my passive hold in feedback by your mother. You are really a fdp and you put your mother in it? Self justification ^^ If nobody knows how to do anything against pff stop looking at the end of your nose to react by greed, the limit, the against, yes well you are not armed. Damn it's boring to self comment when you didn't finish your sentence you ¨M+ds. When will people understand that at the limit we can talk to ourselves, remove the emotions big c** we can talk when. I have a life go ahead and make me lose it supergrosfdp.
I'm Rajiv I'm not suicidal, I've been adopted, I've adopted so many cultures, enough through so many atmospheres... had to deal with so many personalities and dominant traits, I've assimilated them all? What?
I was told that the father who gave birth to me was violent, he was a kind of poet, a bit of a bastard, a bit of French origin well inked there ^^ with an Austrian name. normal yes. well yes I did some research, well it doesn't last too long.

AF Demblon, a researcher (Palo Alto) told me to help me with several diagnoses, she is a specialist in severe psychopaths and sociopaths...
it gives: it's nice to hear and it's scary... from a biased person in a world of biased scientists who makes stat oriented... so it gives shitty results... having mandates without a vocation, but no go away...if it scares me it must scare everyone or it must make them laugh, I don't know, yes if I pull out the Raj' we know, that lady guy who has everything to please beyond the guru yes Jesus can go get himself back on his cross like you 😉
I'm like a sponge.

Credit Google

I am capable I was told of emotional contagion
I am Rajiv, when I was able to say that I was raped I was asked to try to forget. It gives: since I remember I am asked to forget I will be told that everything will be fine. So I created a world, a family, a network where I found my own, sometimes. A world where I am alone and surrounded by people who want me well.

I'm my father's son who calls himself a pigeon or a cleaner, if I tell him I'm a pigeon egg he doesn't understand to save me from his fears and demons that escape me because all he's ever wanted to do is protect me, he's my daddy and yet he'll introduce me to my father and my siblings parents. Just that in the pantheons of memory, if some people have tri parts I have generations of mystical tribes of shit? Thank you.

I come from a family of 10 kids and 7 of us were adoped in the same country but different families?

Every day I wake up and have an anxiety attack that turns into claustrophobia, which turns into agoraphobia and then I have a manic attack, I go around in circles looking for things that I don't care about as talking drives me crazy. What a waste of time. The Dracula technique works so well ^^ or there I am, should we type in there? Really. Not sure.

Like S.(n)o.B. you will read and call me. Like the other one I used to watch on TV who became my mother LOL. "You have to give everything? Well, we'll go for a ride when you want but I'm bored now anyway and I have shitty content and sourced, should I be a humorist. Don't worry, there's your black humor, the black humor, then the bounti vie(w)(x)... not updated the language... words-
yeah well my text is crap, yes
"if I had an agent, he would need an agent" ^^
anyway, thank you since i saw you in Brussels, ...your vibe and that of the crowd of 6000 people resonates in me like never before and even if i feel more distressed than ever, i had to say sorry otherwise you wouldn't understand my thank you you asshole.

My life is like an ambassador invited and sponsored since ever while you do shows asshole, I feel not very legit then, I could have just say hello, but it's a pain, I prefer to start by putting myself in self knockout at least from there we can eventually talk or. ... you stay too busy with your shitty "friends" (sorry I'm kidding, I'm not kidding at least not that) you still talked about who you hang out with, it's almost like my ex and I ...and I don't know if that kind of world is ok LOL.
if you want to blow your audience's brains out and make them leave before you start and make a 36h or 72h show condensed into 6h I'm hot, I've got the source and IT just pees my balls, it means E.T. that's all. I'm out. I don't know how to introduce myself anyway, I'll drive people crazy if I get the front page out.
So I'm going back to "keeping busy". like.

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Call me Raj' we know each other
Jean's we know each other
Lyricist Watelootit but above all we know each other
Indian, belgian, Watelootit from everywhere we know each
other Talk to us about love before talking to us about money
Jean' that's what me say the an-ienc, the daronnes
Far from claws and carrion
And even in god or cat talks I have only one word
When death comes, you are buried without your billions
Have you ever seen a chest- loud in the back of a hearse?
Still ignorant I was told that knowledge is a weapon
My brother in prison told me that the parlor is a tear
To the men, to the women locked up far from the palaces
And who
I'm in the arena, they sponsor me but I'm nervous
And it seems they're tracking us, I disappear after this track, damn
After the truce, I don't go out anymore
How do you want me to lead a dream life when I can't sleep anymore?
For a little pure gold, we quickly become garbage
And you already know it there's damage, disagreements last
Money or crypto makes hypocrites pretend
They'll forget I'm Indian when I sign them blank checks
Check the atmosphere, the music is melancholy
But you can join the dance if your mind is still free
I'm delirious, but I get rid of big mouths, far from big mouths
I'm more like a lonely child, ask mammasitta '
They all dare to say that the ghetto is cool, look at it
The kids grow while the metals crumble and I
see their yellow smiles
The blockchain, is a street which kills us, some treat her like a mother so I call her Silvie
For all areas away from wonderland
What if this country is beautiful? Go tell that to the people of block.one
I'm waking up, dream of a beach for the little eggs, not of an infamous land
Because you can't believe we're surfing on a wasteland
But how do we escape, we've already come by far
We were already in a daze when we were 20 years younger
Tell them that we are not cracked, the media don't

And they talk to us about consuming more on chain
If they could they would even put commercials in our dreams
Even this life becomes a trade between risk and rebate
Go tell the gossips that I want to live from my records and my speeches
I run so as not to fall like a domino
If in this business you need a long arm I am the Venus de Milo
And when my pen complains, it's not provocation
I'm advised to take stock, I make question marks
Why am I not afraid of my death but of that of my loved ones?
Why does Marianne feel remorse but what does she blame me for?
On the national identity that one corrects me
But did my ancestors really look like Vercingetorix?
Me, I have the rhetoric of the bled and our cold suburbs
My heart is so hot that I can't say everything in two sentences
So I strike minds in the right place
I'm eternally misunderstood, so only the Eternal gives me will understand
It goes into drama, pride is a disease
When men and women think they have a monopoly on paradise
Fuck the religious megalomaniacs
I prefer an atheist who behaves like a believer than a believer who behaves like a bastard
lets'throws me in the water with this somewhat talkative text
I paid the taro but the crisis ended up getting me
I'..I asked the moon she took me for a rockstar
Don't be so sad, bad karma
When all the dreams of the street come to turn into carnage
Because me the time of bricks has passed me
And life is ...is like a Bic you can put a cross on your mistakes but not erase them
Too angry but drunk enough to smile
I don't know if hope makes me live but it keeps me from dying
And love can feed me suddenly my pulse quickens
I want to be a happy man just to cry like William Sheller
And if sometimes I seem far from the turmoil
Mama, my life is beautiful but you are always missing Mama
I could sing like i'm proud but unpretentious
God accepts prayers above all, not beautiful songs
The only ransom is the salvation of the people we love (amine)
No tension, we all gain from knowing each other (amine)
Having all the virtues is impossible
I have a thought for all the people I lost for all yours too
The number of measures of this text if you think about it
Is just equal to the average age of life expectancy in France
But it is not a question of age, figures and stats
I am talking to you above all about rage, love and hope
Life expectancy

Credit : Chappie

I am alive and thriving. 100% original.

@jnmarteau some credit to Yousouhpa - Espérance de vie

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