Its good you are trying to reach out. I honestly think not everything can be fixed on your own, you need honest feedback, debate, stuff you want and need to hear, and also stuff you dont want to hear at all from others.
Its difficult reaching out sometimes. Also the responses from your audience can me hurtfull I noticed, and while being sensitive and vulnarable this is exactly what you dont need.
Be strong my friend, there is a time and place for everything
I apologize for taking this long to get back to you.
Thank you, @karinxxl, both for your upvote as well as your timely comment.
I did not fully realize how down I was before I posted this - and so clearly I have something that needs to be sorted through. The first step shall be sleep - always a friend in these situtions. :c)
Thank you again. ^_^
Sleep is the best thing to start with! Without a well rested body and mind can never be well rested. After a good night of sleep you often you will see life in a whole different perspective.
No problem dude, I honestly think there is a listening ear in any channel in life..either real life, online, a family member, an neighbor, the dude next to you in the bar. There is always somebody who relates!!
Take care!