Mixed feelings... A letter to my ex

You're the king,

Over my sadness you rule.

Hi,

You're my warrior,

Freeing my mind from happiness and wellbeing.

Hello,

You're my protector,

Steadily ensuring I never find love.

You are my ex.

You were all I ever wanted,

No one else but you.

I did everything I could to make you notice me,

But you never did.

I became a shadow to you,

One you can only see when the sun is up,

But never really took note of.

I longed for you, your touch, especially your love.

Now that we are apart,

I won't lie to myself, I don't know why I still miss you.

A thing of the past,

Discarded like thrash.

You kept saying, I was going to hit and run,

That I wanted to smash and pass,

Took you eternity to accept my advances,

You kept saying just this, no more chances.

Everybody thought I was going to dump up,

After talking to you, I go from one hundred,

To feeling like used up.

I still didn't mind,
The heart wants what the hearts want.

I guess I just am not what your heart wants.