Sorry to hear about your doggie, I know what that feels like. When my terrior passed a few years ago it took awhile to get over it. Last year we rescued a whippet and my gosh what a great one we got! It was a lot of work at first because she was found covered in mud by a canal so it took days to get all the crud out of her ears and weeks for her sores to heal. Funny though how dogs give more than they get. Take care man!