Dear C. Since my tender childhood, I have depressive episodes in which I do not see the purpose of anything. (Maybe that's why I wanted to be a nun and be locked in a convent.) But I also always had a high sense of responsibility and commitment, which forced me to carry out all the prescribed actions (fulfilling enviable agendas), This generated a high index of exhaustion, and today at 53 years of age with the departure of my last great responsibility, (my beloved youngest son who left abroad) I have taken a great Sabbath rest. If God took it, and still not returned to creative work. because I do not? Thanks for your interesting analysis. For the moment I am working with the emotional unblocking by doing a reset of each stage of my life that could generate some emotional short circuit. Peace.