Love send me to the Emergency Room // My Experience

My experience with love has create that mindset in me that I should never put all my trust or invest much on love or relationship again. That experience has made me not to give love a chance in my life and for the pass two to three years till now, I haven’t given love a chance in my life. But is it worth it that I deprive myself of love again or change the way I use to be just because of a failed passed relationship?

(That was me at the hospital)

Hi everyone,👋 I'm excited to have you here again on my blog. Today, I want to share with you my experience on love that affected my life and I will love to hear your honest feedback weather I should or I should not accept?

It all started at my first year in the higher institution on a faithful day when my roommate brought home this beautiful dark skin damsel. He introduces her as his friend he met in the lecture hall. We all vibe well and had fun conversation till evening. Few weeks later, I saw a text message on my whatsapp, it was from her. She got my number form my roommate. We chatted and from that moment we became close friends. At my year two and three we were best of friends. She became my female besties. To be honest, she is the kind of bestie you will ever want to have. She is selfless, kind and generous. This is someone that will help without asking anything in return. There are times I will having challenge of finance in school, on several occasions have she shared her monthly allowance into two and send half to me even when I don’t ask for it. Most times I’ve tried reciprocating the gesture but then she will refuse accepting anything from me and will send it back. We were so close that we hardly stay without seeing each other in a day.

It happens that she was looking for a room to stay close to school since her current location was far from the school axis and there was a vacant room for rent in my compound. Without hesitation I connected her to my landlady and she moved in. Her coming to the compound made our bond even more stronger. We were known to be the compound couples who oppress other compound neighbours because of how close we are. If one person comes home first from school, he/she will cook and wait for the other to come home first before eating together. It was indeed memorable memories but things were about to take a different dimension.
One say she walked up to me and said she want to talk to me. She opens up her mind and told me her feelings and how she will want us to enter into relationship.

At first when I got admission in the university, I promise myself not to engage in anything that will distract me from my academics which include relationship, even if I will want to, it should be at my final year. I maintained that promise till my third year and that had help me maintain my grade and G.P on first class division.
So I told her I’m not in for any form of relationship now and that I will prefer our friendship more over relationship. This happen at my third year. Even after I told her I wasn’t in for any relationship, the bond between us become stronger than before, she became stingier like a magnet. Few months later, with what I’ve observe, I decided to take the decision of going into relationship with her. Unfortunately for me, the time I wanted to ask her out, some else had already did and they were just starting. Though I still went ahead and told her I was coming to make things official between us but since she is in a relationship with another person, I will just back down after all it was my fault, I should have accepted when she told me her feelings. It actually hurt me though because I also later develop that feeling for her but it was late. Even in her relationship with the other guy, we were still that close bestie.

After about a year, they had serious misunderstanding that led to their break up. The guy was cheating on her. As a sharp guy, I didn’t hesitate to waste time and decided to use the opportunity to ask her out and she also without hesitation accepted me and we started dating. Everything was going well, the love, romans, mutuality was there and I invested much on it, my time, energy, trust, resources just to make sure she never had any reason to complain and for over a year we were doing just very fine.

> When things started getting ugly!!!!!

For that period of one year plus she never complained or had any reason to complain but there was one thing that came up. One day she came to me and told me that I’m too gentle and calm with her, I don’t scold her when she does something wrong, even when she tries to create issues intentionally, I will still be the one to apologize. So I asked her isn’t that a good thing, what do want me to do? “Hmm!!!!” that was what she did and didn’t replied me.

As time goes on I began to notice suspicious movement from her and secretive acts and when she wants to pick or make call, she will excuse herself and walk out. One day I decide to go through her chats and boom!!!! I found out that she was cheating on me with a guy she recently met. One thing that actually got me pissed up on that chat was when she told the guy that she is going to create a serious issue between us so that I can get angry with her. This will make her ask for a break for a month, then she will come to meet him (the other guy) and do whatever she wants with him after which she will return back to me and apologize after all she knows I’m a gentle guy and will easily forgive her.

When I confronted her about the chat, she didn’t deny or apologize for her act rather she replied I caused it. She told me I’m too gentle for her, I don’t scold her when she does wrong, I’m always calm about everything. There are times she will want to feel little harshness from me but I don’t, always been the good guy, that was the reason she decided to double date.
I could not take it reading those chat and hearing those words from her and so I decided to end things between us. I couldn’t let go of the pain, it was so bad that I had countless sleepless night, not eating, just indoors for over a week. Few days after the incident, I decided to take a walk to ease myself, after walking few distance, I could to return back, my eyes became dark and was turning me. I had to seat by the pavement of the road. A bike man saw me and decided to take me home, on getting close to the house, I lost consciousness and fell down from the bike to the ground. I was rushed to the hospital and the doctor took a text and found out that my blood pressure was extremely low. I was placed on emergency treatment with five injections on a straight and subsequent injections for over three days. After the treatment, I decide to travel away from home and everyone to a friend’s house at lugbe, Abuja. Still I was depressed and couldn’t get off her thought from my head. Is as if everywhere I go, I see her. I fell ill again the second time and was rush to the hospital. This time around, my blood pressure was extremely high. Even when the first doctor took my B.P reading, she couldn’t believe it and had to send me to a senior doctor who brought out a new sphygmomanometer (instrument for measuring blood pressure) to text me and found out the same result the first doctor got. I was placed on treatment for two weeks with constant check-up. This issue affected my grade to the point my G.P dropped down to second class division.

Thank God I finally get over it and move forward with my life but I promise never to love again or invest much on love or relationship. This happen two years back and since then till now I’ve refuse to love again.

Early this month, I saw a call from the same lady, she was apologizing for what she did, how foolish she was and that ever since we broke up, she had been in three different relationships all of which did not work out well. That I’m the only one that understands her better, understands her fault, strength and weaknesses and can tolerate her. She will like us to come back again. The question is “Should I or should I not accept her back?”
I need your honest reply?
Joash