Hello dear @clareartista thanks for your comforting words...I guess the fire ceremony, it's because I felt so powerless and I wanted to do something from here, but something neither to inclined to one religion, nor completely pagan.

I've always found the fire scene in "The Return Of The King" (Lord Of The Ring) very powerful, and in my logical mind, I could imagine my father in law seeing the fire in France on his way out. 😁

Thanks for the tips for the chickens, what happened is that we went to Spain for 3 months, and our neighbours took care of them. I am not saying it's their fault because they took well care of them and we're thankful, but that there's not much I could do and they died before we came back from Spain.

Take care!