So glad you find comfort and community here. Many of us understand the pain of losing a child. Everyone grieves differently, but we survive and make everything we do honor that life. For example, when I work with children at church or love my remaining grandchildren, I honor our little Ruthie's life.
Thank you for sharing your story. Interesting you brought up your church. I spent years searching for other surviving parents who could understand. It wasn't until I came back to the church after being gone several years that I began to heal. There are many people in my church who are surviving parents, strangely they were right in front of me all along. I was taught it was okay to move on and continue to live through the word of God. I have true faith that we will all see them again someday.