In My Early Days
I became fascinated with conspiracies at an early age. I’ve always been a bit of a sci-fi nut, thanks to my father’s choice in books, music, movies, and games. I knew the difference between fantasy and reality, what was pretend and what was real. The issue was, that with my simple, childish understanding of the world, I took the news as fact. That’s what I was told after all. Sometime in the early 90’s, I remember a very brief report about a strange object flying in the sky. I don’t remember the exact report, and I only ever remember seeing the video one other time in my research. It wasn’t any of your typical ufos, being not cigar or saucer shaped, but more akin to a strange pile of junk, made of cubes and spheres and whatnot. If anyone has the video or a still, I’d love to see it, because that’s when my fascination began.
Later in the nineties, I was keenly aware of things like documentaries on UFOs, (Where are all the UFOs 1996), the STS-75 Tether Incident (Feb-March 1996), and the Phoenix Lights incident (Thursday, March 13, 1997). I remember being glued to the television screen for these events, stuck in awe. Science fiction was blurring the line with reality right before my eyes.
This was also around the same time we first got access to the internet. My family was an early adopter of computers, deciding to get a Tandy desktop instead of an NES or Sega master system. Around 1996 we upgraded our computer, got a dial-up modem and AOL 3.0, and I got my first taste of the World Wide Web. Naturally, as events like the phoenix lights unfolded, I started scouring the internet for connections, pictures, anything. Oh boy did I find more than I bargained for.
And that was the start of a journey through conspiracies. My father wasn’t too happy when I asked him about what his beliefs were in the JFK assassination, and warned me against getting too far into “silly conspiracies”. Being a rebellious teenager, but also one that respected his father, I figured I’d do my best to keep a level head and just not talk to him about my research any more, while diving as deep as possible into everything that came up. I was also VERY naive, kinda always have been. So of course I believed in just about every theory there was so long as it was presented halfway decently, but most of this still revolved around aliens, since I found them the most fascinating.
A Change of Perspective
That is, until September 11, 2001. The fateful day where my usually strict keyboarding teacher stopped everything in my 2nd hour typing class for us to all watch TV. The rest of the day I watched, and watched, and watched, over and over, the towers fall. I got home and sat with my parents as we watched it some more, but something didn’t feel right to me. I remember things that were said early in the morning that didn’t seem to jive with things said in the afternoon and evening.
So I took to the internet. Now I’m not going to dive deep into what I believe happened that day or why, but over the course of the next couple of weeks from that day my attention shifted quickly from how to build my own inertial dampener and space-folding device so I could travel the stars, and straight over to a hyper-focus on the elite, stonemasons, and the Illuminati. I began devouring information on false-flag operations, MKULTRA, the Knights Templar, the Bilderbergs, Rothschilds, you name it. At this point I was in pretty deep. I didn’t believe ANYTHING from the major news outlets, televised or otherwise. I constantly talked about how we were all pawns in some elaborate scheme, about how we need to fight back against them, and rage against the machine, the illuminati.
The Turning Point
About seven years ago, I worked at a job that sat me next to a highly intelligent, super-rational, ultra atheist skeptic. We worked on the data analytics side of a large call center, so we were set apart from the main hustle and bustle of the phones. As nice as it was to not have to troubleshoot services, handle customers, and sell sell sell, we were pretty much alone, just us and a whole lot of spreadsheets. We talked often and it wasn't long before I found out that he HATED conspiracies, of all kinds. So we argued to pass the time.
It was all in good fun, and heated debates were both our things. He was far superior in the ways of debate, what with a memory much sharper than mine for citing facts and sources, and his several years of high school debate to my zero. This didn't stop me though, but this was not the reason for the underpinning of my beliefs. Whereas he had a strong debate background, the fun for me was in getting under his skin. He would get heated beyond belief and lash out with facts and arguments even when he could tell I was joking, and I would poke at him with lighthearted questions about if bigfoot prefered nike or reebok or if he thought the president was actually some genetic clone of hitler. He couldn't help himself but argue, and for that I couldn't help but poke him about it. Instant amusement, something that was sorely needed between the dark grey walls of a corporation that would sell the souls of the lower middle class for a quick dollar.
If nothing else, it proved to me which things I believed passionately about, and separated truth from chaff so to speak. The more I could argue something, and the more heated I got, the more I realized what I really believed and what I didn't. My beliefs on transhumanism, aliens, remote viewing, out of body experiences, meditation, lucid dreaming, and general spirituality all met the bill as far as things that I would "agree to disagree" with him on.
The Reason You Came Here For
I was a diehard believer in SOMETHING being messed up, and the illuminati fit the bill of a shady group that had deep roots, controlling the populace at the very least through money and patent law, if not through far more nefarious ways. I was convinced that all the big elites were in on it. Every time I tried to argue though, I found myself not really giving it the same thought that I did my passionate topics.
And then it really dawned on me. I wanted to believe in the illuminati because I didn't want to believe the truth: that everything was run by idiots. In the corporate world, it was easy to see that the higher up the chain you went, the dumber you had to be to keep from upsetting the status quo. I was on the inside of that machine already, and worked closely with the cogs and wheels that kept it running. I saw corruption and sheer stupidity driving EVERYTHING. I couldn't get promoted because I was "too valuable" where I was (meaning, I was a threat to my boss's position). No one likes a thinker. But I wanted to believe that in politics things were better, I wanted to believe that people smarter than I, with histories far deeper. I was comforted by the thought that they had won the battle before even my great grandparents knew they were fighting it.
But the truth, as it became clear to me, was that yes there were some people that had positions of power, buying patents as easily as they bought politicians. But they weren't organized, the plan was not grandiose or structured. They were not a massive group of thousands or millions keeping their control secret. No, most of them just got dumber and greedier the further you got up the chain. There are of course small groups, temporary alliances, and even major conspiracies in banking, politics, and war, but nothing as big as I had thought. I wasn't up against hydra.
I would prefer a world where I was bested in a game of chess by a chessmaster, not by a schoolyard bully. I would prefer to lose this game years before I was born, so that I could give in and just live with the fact that the world is on fire and I should enjoy the time that I have. I also didn't want to be responsible for fixing it, it's much easier to give up knowing that there's nothing I could do. Much easier to think that there's no hope, that I couldn't fight if I wanted to.
The Aftermath
It's much harder to be responsible. Without the excuse of having lost the war before I was armed, I have accountability on my shoulders, and no scapegoat to blame. My efforts and my consumption has a broader impact. It means I am a soldier, I am fighting in the war. and every action I take has an impact, no matter how small. Sure, there are some battles I won't win, some companies that will buy patents with no intent of releasing them. Wars will still be fought without my consent. There will be corrupt politicians and shady side-deals happening behind closed doors, but my voice still has an impact.
I no longer believe in the illuminati as a whole. I believe that corrupt banks CAN fail, we just have to put the pressure in the right place. I believe that intelligence CAN prevail, we just need to put smart people where they can do the best work. I believe we CAN win the war, but we need to be responsible and accountable for our actions during the fight.
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Oddly enough, several years ago I came to the same conclusion by an entirely different route. Individual people are smart (for some values of smart) but groups are stupid and get MORE stupid the larger they get. The collective intelligence of a group is inversely proportional to it's size. Not only that but it's inevitable.
Jerry Pournelle's Iron Law of Bureaucracy states that
First, there will be those who are devoted to the goals of the organization. Examples are dedicated classroom teachers in an educational bureaucracy, many of the engineers and launch technicians and scientists at NASA, even some agricultural scientists and advisors in the former Soviet Union collective farming administration.
Secondly, there will be those dedicated to the organization itself. Examples are many of the administrators in the education system, many professors of education, many teachers union officials, much of the NASA headquarters staff, etc.
The Iron Law states that in every case the second group will gain and keep control of the organization. It will write the rules, and control promotions within the organization.
Why does this happen?
I suspect that it has to do with the Monkey Sphere
In other words it's hard wired into our brains. Recognize it for what it is and deal with it.
George Washington said
Government is not reason, it is not eloquence — it is force. Like fire it is a dangerous servant and a fearful master; never for a moment should it be left to irresponsible action.
That applies to any group. The solution would be to keep them small and under tight control.
Perhaps...or perhaps Groups are embryonic AI's. Their perceived best interesting wouldn't' be the same as ours would they? (Do you consult with your hair follicles before you get a haircut?)
But that's crazy talk.
Nay, it's an amazing analysis, and I'm a fan of crazy talk. Like I said I'm only divulging one real belief here, one which I think you some up with a bit more citation than mine but a similar conclusion nonetheless. Once you know better what you are dealing with, you can ask and answer more eloquent questions, much like you've done here. I like it, makes ya think eh?
I can get down with a good conspiracy theory.@quantumanomaly
I have my own views that are not set in stone, they constantly shift and get reshuffled with new information. I have found that there is a line that shouldn't be crossed and those brave souls that step past, usually find themselves in the throws of madness, grasping for anything and everything to make their world view more concrete.
I wouldn't go out believing everything the news says and I wouldn't follow the guy screaming on the street corner either, I remain somewhere in the middle taking what they say with a grain of salt.
I think Rotchild is still pulling some serious clout...
http://www.frot.co.nz/design/sift/conspiracies/
For sure, but I doubt he some kind of god-emperor.
I agree with most of what you say. There are definitely megalomaniacal people who want to control the world but human nature makes it very difficult for them to form groups to do this for the simple reason that the kind of people who want to do this are unlikely to concede power to others.
Any groups with serious aspirations for power that try to remain secret (or even if they are open) will likely break down into smaller and smaller units due to perpetual infighting and power struggles.
The Illuminati did exist in the past but I doubt they were any more than a gentleman's club with high aspirations much as the Freemasons are now.
The "true" mechanisms of control are things such as corporations where laws and culture are used to create a functioning mega consciousness but it is not exactly the same thing as a secret society. This is pretty open and we all know about it and accept it. The fact that from a legal standpoint corporations are granted personhood (in the US at least) serves to underline this point.
Conspiracies can and do occur but they are generally rare compared to how often they are declared.
Taking the example of 9/11 I think the most likely conspiracy relates to shady business issues - i.e. Saudi involvement which everyone now knows about and was hardly a secret.
There was probably also something relating to substandard construction of the buildings given how they went down.
On a separate but just as likely line - intelligence mistakes due to rivalry between the major intelligence agencies may have meant that multiple opportunities to stop the attacks were missed. I don't think that was due to a conspiracy but people may have conspired to cover their mistakes and misdeeds.
Indeed I think that the most likely source of conspiracies is simply that people are trying to hide their own failings, incompetences or general stupidity.
For things like UFOs whatever the basis of the phenomenon I suspect the governments may have a lot of data but they are just as clueless as the rest of us to what is actually going on.
The likely truth embargo as some Ufologists put it is actually to hide the ignorance of the government and military as well as their impotence in relation to phenomena which may have security implications.
Everything you say here rings with my sentiment. No one wants to be made a fool, ESPECIALLY in positions of power. No one wants to be wrong, especially if it means fixing their mistakes. Often, discovery of one mistake will lead to more discrepancies, and down the rabbit hole you go. So, it's far easier to sweep it all under the rug so to speak. Whether you're dealing with Fannie Mae of Area 51, the process is all the same.
It is a shame though, that corporations do it loud and publicly, and still no one cares. Against entities that big, it's easy to feel powerless, but too often people forget their biggest asset, how they spend their money.
If all of the people in even a small town switched from a big bank to a credit union, that bank would go out of business in that town, because they wouldnt be making enough profit to support it. Same can be said for any product, especially product that expires, like food. Stop buying nestle products, and the food goes bad, the company loses money, and maybe THEN they'll listen. Alas, far too many would rather just stare at the TV, eat ice cream, and wait for the world to burn. I've been there myself a time or two.
Thank you for sharing this material, I like what you posted. Thank you so much
You're welcome!
Great post.
Nothing is always black or white, there are many nuances in reality and we must be able to see them.
So I think it's not about believing in Illuminati or not, it's about how we see reality that really matters.
Too much conspiracy theories bring to paranoia, too few bring to conformism and believing everything official media say, so maybe a little balance may help.
I agree. There's always so many details and actions that go into ANY event, big or small. I think for me it was a matter of believing less of what I saw, from ANY media outlet, and beginning to question things on my own, to develop my own opinions on the reality before me, and to support those opinions with facts where I could.
Exactly.
Facts are objective, while the perception of reality is always subjective.
Interesting to note, Illuminati is one of the highest ranks that a member of the Rosicrucian order can achieve. The Rosicrucian order is the literal opposite of the Masons. Where Masons seek to control their environment through forceful manipulation, the R.O. seeks to live by nature and work with the laws of the universe. As the Masons seek power and strength, the R.O. seeks to heal and create.
Those few wealthy buying out patents and such, most of them just happen to be Masons.
Illuminati simply means illuminated, but with the references you make I know you already know that. And again I've not said that there arent groups, vying for control of the crumbs that fall out of the baking dish, just simply that no one owns the whole pie. ;)
I wasn't disagreeing with your post at all, just adding an interesting anecdote. :D
Oh I didnt see it as disagreement lol, just healthy back-and-forthing :)
Its hard to tell without body language to support the conversation. The smiley face should help, but alas, he has no cheek bones. :P
I just realized I never commented on your article's composure! It is really nice, heh. Everything is formatted very neat and clearly presented for the reader to digest.
Very profound article. I have a similar progression if you will. The details vary, but the metamorphosis from helpless raging victim to recognizing how I'm part of the problem and making interior changes is very much a part of my story as well.
I love that you brought a level head to the table and came away with a more empowering perspective on power than you started with. IMHO there is a small group of people that wield a huge amount of influence over how society develops ... but 'small' is like fifty thousand in this context, and what binds this group of people together is a set of stories about how the world works rather than any grand occult conspiracy.
Conspircay theories often seem to be based on the idea that there is only one actor (some controlling group) in the world, and the rest of the world sits passively by as events just happen to them, or are being told what to do.
No one, except this controlling group, has any free will or initiative it seems.
There is definetely thousands or millions of people working for the illuminati, only they have no idea that they do.
The way the organization is structured is like any company , you have the employees, the supervisors, the managers and the directors. The employees know nothing about the future plan of the company yet they are working for it. The supervisors only know what the managers tell them to do, they also have no idea about the future plans for the company. And the managers know nothing too, they just do what the director tell them to do. Only the director know what the futures plans for the company are but that doesn't prevent all the rest of them to work for the same company agenda. The illuminati works the same only they have actually a lot more layers )
Do you think the aircraft pilot spraying chemical knows that he is killing the land, the bees, the food and ultimately the people when doing so? NO He thinks that he is helping the global warming cause. That's why the media play such an important role in their game because if everybody knows the truth no one will keep working for them, this example above can be said for doctor with vaccines, congressman/politicians with stupid laws, teachers who indocrinate our children, people who promote homosexuality, the music industry,the police aggressing its own people, etc..all these people work for the illuminati but they have no idea that they do or what the real agenda is.
The bilderberg meeting gather 100+ of the most influencial people in all different sector, think of these people as the supervisors. The managers at the conference will give them some objectives and direction but will never tell them the whole agenda because they have no idea what it is.
When the supervisors go out of the conference they will tell their employees to work on many differents project that all benefits the illuminati and further move their agenda. Chances are you and me could be working on these projects and as such be working for the illuminati.
There is no secret to keep because no one but a very few on top knows it.
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