I know it won't last

Recently, I learned to accept a few things about myself. Whether I want to change them in the future or not, that's a different topic. Right now, I accept parts of who I am, without judgement or hatred.

One of those things is that I am rarely satisfied with something for long enough. This might simply be human nature, and if that's the case, I am okay with this part of myself.

In just a few days I'll be done with work for this season. We'll close the restaurant and spend 2-3 days cleaning everything. I then have to wait just a little more and I can finally go home.

Once there, I know what will happen. I will take a "break", or at least I think I will. I've been telling myself that I wish to not do anything productive for a while, but I know very well that that's not the case. I might wish it, but I won't be able to remain inactive for very long. Maybe a week. Perhaps, if I'm lucky, two.

Eventually, I'll start looking into things that I wish to do. I might begin working on some 3D scenes. I might begin writing and posting daily again. I might continue to learn programming, or pick something completely new.

Whatever it is, I know I can't rest. I know I'll always want more, regardless of what it is. I want to create more things, to learn more skills, to make more money, and so on. I'm never happy with what I have, and this can be both good, and bad. Sure, I'm always frustrated that I don't have more, but at least I don't become too comfortable with having nothing.

I learned this about myself, in time, and I'm accepting it. I think that learning to be okay with certain parts of yourself, even if temporarily, helps you better navigate through life. I can't force a break upon myself, just as I can't focus work that I absolutely hate. It's who I am.

So, if there's anything you can do, in time, to help you have a better time at almost anything, is learning to accept yourself for who you are, and then figuring out how to use what you have to do what you must, and how to accept the fact that certain things might simply not be for you.