When you're too tired to think

That's when it's a good time to write.

I want to write about some of these thoughts. I

I can't talk to Stina about them easily because I have covid and she doesn't so we're not in the same room.

I wish I didn't have covid..

I want my acting career to just be...more successful. Everything would be less confusing if I just felt like, Oh, I know what work I need to do to be more successful at the career I chose and I can stop thinking about all this other work I can do in other things.

And listen, when I say successful, I really mean one thing in particular: SAG-AFTRA work.

I was on a tv show this year! and I had a national commercial
I should be flying high, lol. And maybe I would be but I'm in a mood because of covid probably

Lots is great about the career. I like my ancillary career jobs, like the pop.in, and sometimes I think about other things I could do,

But in one of my groups folks were talking about pension qualification

and so I went and looked, and I have only 2 pension credits. I think I thought I had 4. But nope. There's only been 2 years when I made enough to qualify.

And that's

ugh it's that and it's wanting...to make movies and shows in collaboration with other artists. I'm missing that. I haven't completed a project like that in a long time, and...I just want to be in a community of people who are so

Oh geez I dunno. I'm tired, too. That's on me. Or not, but it is kinda. I mean, I don't do everything in my power to- or do I

Maybe I need to make some resolutions about things to cut out of my life and add to my life

Oho. Should I make a schedule. I like to do that sometimes. Maybe I will this time. Boom let's dooooo it

Monday: Wake up 6:30am
make breakfast and coffee and enjoy with kiddo and wife-o
7:30 walk kiddo to school, get back home by 845
845-930 figure out where books are, read parts of the sunday paper I didn't get to
930-1010 walk to the school where I volunteer until 1110, then walk home, get there by 1150
1150-12 walk dogs
12 make a nice midday meal for all of us finish eating by 1
1-2 write something, I dunno what, but that sounds nice...oh shit, I need to do punday monday here. I guess no other writing Monday
2-3 coffee with mirage
3-4 get the kid bring him home or maybe there's a playdate at the playground that takes us to 5 when I work
popin work 5-6
dinner 6-7 and dogwalking
bedtime for kiddo 7-8
storytelling with friends 8-10
bedtime for us by 1030

That sounds very full. And it's pretty similar to what I already do. The problem is that while I walk I stare at my phone and don't let the beauty of the world overtake me...or something. Gotta kindle passion. I hate covid. both having it, and the impact it's had on the world

Tuesday
630-730 breakfast, dogs, etc
730-845 kid to school
9am-3pm hm
9-10 intentional exercise with stretching and stuff? Maybe listen to some meditation app and get into yoga?
10-noon work (popintrivia)
noon to 1 make a nice lunch
1 to 3... write a few postcards to casting directors, peruse the sagaftra foundation site for classes to take
3-4 get kid home, but go shopping on the way, so really to 5
5-6 popin work
6-7 dinner
7-8 bedtime
8-9 popin work
9-10 maybe stina and I can watch half a movie?

The thing is, I'm not putting in the real amount of time that dog walking and other chores such things happen. it's way more. Like where is all the time? How do people who work more than me find the time?

more later