These few days, my emotions has been a roller-coaster ride. Sometimes I can joke around with my family, friends and colleagues. There are times when I wanted to scream as loud as I can. There is also times where I wanted to be leave alone for the whole day.
I notices that my mood change rapidly and suddenly... as of now, while I'm typing this post, I am feeling sad, helpless and worthless.... How do I get this feeling, I have no answer to that.
I don't know whether should I go and see a doctor or a psychiatrist about this? More accurately, how to start seeing doctor or psychiatrist about what I'm feeling right now.
This is not a cry for help. I just merely trying to ease my thought by spilling it here. By typing what I feel, somewhat gave me a little sense of relief. This simple thing is what keeping me sane.
I'm hoping I can stay strong and not too driven or make a judgement by emotion. Not for myself, but for my family... especially my kids.
Rosmadi Razali
Hi hi.. bro.. it's good that you write it out.. whenever you feel some sort of negative feeling, just let someone know. =) What areas of life are you feeling depressed about? There is definitely something that has made you felt that way.
Hi bro. Thank you for commenting. Sekarang saya sedang memcuba beberapa perkara untuk membantu menghilankan perasaan ini.
Wish me luck bro 🙏🙏
If u need help, u can always write it out.. and talk to a person who u can trust like maybe parents.. =) See what is the reason this feeling? Perasaan ini berasal dari mana. That is very important.
can you pinpoint what is making you feel that way? It is only my opinion, from experience, I am not a doctor but I find depression is a sign you are off path in some way in your life, like your not focusing on doing things that fulfil you and bring you joy, not focused on the positives. Anti depressants can only numb things you still have to change the things in your life and the feelings to make it more fulfilled.
I will share my story incase it helps.
I had severe depression in my second year of university, in my first I was partying, had tons of friends was out all the the time, then suddenly it hit me like a rock. I didn't want to leave my room, I didn't want to go out, of course at uni most socialising was at parties and clubs so I never went, then people stopped inviting me then I felt even more depressed that no one invited me. I remember eventually going to the doctors and she diagnosed me with mild bipolar and gave me anti depressants. I went home and I never took those tablets, maybe somehow the recognition had given me the will power to decide I WAS going to face it and get through it without tablets. I remember going to the gym, I would feel numb, I was doing the actions on the cross trainer but it's like I was an empty shell. Around this time I found photography, suddenly I went off in nature on my own taking macros and bit by bit I re found my joy, balanced out my highs and lows. Spiritual work and meditation etc and manfulness helped this further over the years. Now I never get depressed. A) because I learnt how to deal with my emotions through a spiritual path and B) because I follow my heart now and I am quicker to just let go of things and move towards the things that make me feel better. Of course that can still take time but I am quicker. I think I just wasn't being honest with myself that at university partying all the time and drinking alcohol just wasn't me, it wasn't feeding my soul at all. I was just doing it because everyone else was and that was how to be popular. Once I honoured myself and I focused on photography, nature etc I began to come back to myself.
I don't know if that helps but just incase. xx
Hi @ultravioletmag, thank you for commenting and sharing your experience. Also sorry that it took me forever to reply back to you.
I think by now I know what is the cause of this feeling. I currently making my move to solve the issues bit by bit. I am currently seeing a psychiatrist and making monthly visit there. This is my first step, hopefully I will find subsequent steps that able to further help me. Wish me luck in tackling my issue 🙏🙏
Agree and thank you for also highlighting this. I am aiming to make my feeling fulfilled 😊
It does help. Thank again for sharing your experience. xx