MY OWN WAY OF BELIEVING

in #hive11 months ago

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I have come to realize in life that you don't have to please men. Before I always try my best to make sure that I don't have any blemish but I've got to know that people that say Thank you today will come tomorrow and say what have you done for me?
The same thing happen to our lord Jesus Christ, the same people that shouted hosanna, the same people said crucify him.

But their is one thing i don't want people to say about me, I really detest the word "he's too proud" that's more reason I remain abase. Either you have money or not people will say you are proud if you don't dance to their tune again.
I believe everyone has his/her best time to play, serious, think and laugh but misunderstanding will come in when people don't understand your mood.

It happen to me last month and I don't know the way forward till now. Like have said, I normally have time to play and laugh and serious, when I want to play, I will play as if I own the world and when the moodswing comes which i believe is normal, I will be another man entirely and I don't think this is bad?
So two ladies just came to my environment, the first one really understand me, when ever I'm not in the mood she will endure my attitude because I'll mute every one and later i will go back to her when I'm lively to play but it otherwise for the other lady.
When ever I'm not in mood she will feel I'm proud.
We were very close before now because I know about freelance and she's into it as well. We started gisting about it and became camaraderie. Later when my mood swing came, she became a changed person she didn't even give me audience anymore and she doesn't want to understand, I think its time for her to behave aberrantly, she continue this and any time I try to check on her she insult me, to be candor with you, I retaliate, that's how we began, later when our neighbors heard what happen, they all blame me that I don't have tolerance for woman, I was upset the more, and one thing is that, a woman must learn how to respect a man and in a situation where by woman is trying to disrespect and look down on me, I wouldn't take it easy.

Till now we don't greet and my conscience keep telling me to settle with her and I don't want to insult myself should incase she doesn't regard me or accede my apology despite we both offended ourselves. Also she might think I'm interested in her these are what baffled me and i really want to put end to it, mind you, I will hate myself/regret the action if she Insult me.

Life and people in it is not balance, some people will be wicked and they will call it principle, while some will be so kind/magnanimous and people will take advantage of her/him as a fool. It all depend the way you believe it.

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