I broke the rules!

Hi .

I find myself here sitting in front of the passenger side thinking for a lot of things, watching this beautiful street full of trees.
Looks like I’m enjoying this but I’m not only my eyes does because my mind is somewhere else!!!

I feel like I’m doing something wrong and actually I know I’m doing that but I can’t resist anymore!!

Why I broke the rules?
What if they see me ?
What will my punishment be?

I never did something wrong, I always been that simple girl who only wants to help others people but today I find myself here .
But I did this for him.
What if he knows that I’m here ?
I know he will be mad because something will happen to me!!!

I hear the voice of my brother talking and a lower music in the car but I don’t know what he is talking because I lost in deep thoughts and they don’t let me hear anything.

I’m almost there and the only thing that I feel is an emotional thing in my stomach. I always feel that when I’m nervous!!

This signal tells me to drive through but I’m afraid!!
I’m afraid from them because they have been part of my life for a year, a deep black year!!!

I’m here!!
I want to scream his name and tell him that I’m here but I can’t, they can hear me .
I can’t do this!! Remember I broke the rules?

I want to say him that I’m here for him and he has me, but no .
Today no..!!!

something that i needed to say

Thank you ✌🏻🤍