I mean like an arrangement with locals where they give you room and board for babysitting, doing chores, anything like that. From what I've seen and heard about NL it's pretty bad right now, with the massive farmers protests, and I don't know another country in Europe besides Russia where you'd have better opportunities, Italy is toast, Germany too, Romania, Hungary, Bulgaria, all shitholes and racist towards immigrants, not that Italy and Germany are much better, maybe Sweden, Norway, Finland. As a woman though you should be able to find more opportunities, especially social work, things that might help with making you feel better.