Am I going to die today?

Am I going to die is our in-built self protection mindset. Depending on how and when it gets triggered. Before riding on a motorcycle or stepping in for a swim, when you have that kind of feeling, clearly it's because you're not comfortable doing it. Confidence came from repeatedly practicing until you're good at it. When you get that kind of thinking before you commit to something, that is a clear indication of lack of competency.

On the other situation, when you're committing in doing hiit cardio, when you can't do it anymore, and still squeeze the last burpee out, and then you asked yourself "Am I going to die?" Well then, congratulations, you just performed a real hiit cardio workout. It not how many reps you do compare to other person, it's how hard you try. Usually, hiit cardio can't kill someone, asking the silly question is an indication of giving 107% of effort and it felt like dying but you know you're not. I like a phrase from a lyric from Iris by Goo Goo Dolls "Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive".

One last example, I was happily running into the jungle tracking without a guide. I didn't ask myself am I going to die today before the gig, and I slipped, fell from the side of the trail, butt skiing my way towards the edge. For a brief moment, the thought of "Am I going to die today" flash through. I could fall off from a cliff and die? I could fall off from a huge waterfall and get washed away? Will anyone noticed I'm missing? Can I get stuck between rocks and I had to cut my leg to free myself like the one in 127 hours? And then I landed my butt by an open area with bunch of people sitting there picnic 🤣🤣🤣 so embarrassing, my thought of fear death suddenly changed to wish I'm dead.

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Photos taken during a blood donation today at the new facility in Mid Valley Megamall. Give while I can, God knows how mang more time am I going to die today I am blessed to asked myself again. Writing this piece down echoing @glacerioberto on his self empowerment masterpiece.