January is always for new beginnings and thinking about how 2021 (I wrote 2020 at first... hahaha) was. It's a lot of emotions good and bad. I got rid of the xmas decorations and the three right after the New Years, and I have never been so much ready for 2022. And why not start the new year (or January is soon finished tho, hahaha) with what I am grateful for.

I think this is a nice contest, because it makes you think and become happy of those things you have and see the big picture of your journey through life. All those bad things have something you can learn of and shapes your personality.

What am I grateful for ?

I have actually though about this for almost a week now. I have so much to be grateful for, that I can't just mention one. I'm grateful for that there is so much in my life that I'm happy that it turned out it's way, or how my life actually turned out even tho I have a disease that makes me less able to do a lot of things. Like driving a car, complete a higher education, work a full time job for example.
I struggled a lot with the thoughts of that I can't do these things. But I promise you, I have tried to do these things. And I didn't give up on these things before I could see for myself that I couldn't do them.

You know when you was 12 or 13, you always imagined how it was to turn 18, 20 and 30? I did do this a lot when I was younger. It didn't turn out exactly as I imagined, but it did get much better then how I felt back then.

I have been through a lot with my chronic disease, both economic and my health. I don't know how things would turn out if I didn't live in Norway or had supportive parents that would help me if I needed it. This is very personal to me, because independence is so important for me. I don't want to rely on anybody else to feel good about myself or have a good income. I have always had a job since I was 15 years old, and those years I was without it because of my disease, I felt like my life didn't have a meaning. I need a reason to get out of bed in the morning, and it's a nice way to be social and get better self-confidence because you are good at something, or working your way up to become good!

A lot of my family members have heart diseases that makes them no able to work at all, or some of them not as much as they used too. This is a genetic heart disease, that I tested negative on: I didn't have the heart disease. And it's kind of weird, but I feel bad that I don't have it. There is so many in my family that have this gene, and how lucky can a person be? I know I shouldn't feel bad, and I know they get so much good help so they can live as good as they can. Don't get me wrong. I am really happy for not having it. Waiting for the test results was maybe top three things I have felt really nervous about in my life. I actually had a lot of hair loss because I stressed so much about it. It could have been life changing in a really bad way if the results came out positive! But luckily, there is nothing to worry about anymore. I am so grateful that my parents don't have to feel bad of me having the heart disease, and that my future kids won't get the heart disease too.

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Thank you @kaelci for inviting me to participate in this Ladies of Hive contest. ❤️ You can read her post HERE.

I would like to invite @nikolina to participate, and let us know what you are most grateful right now or in your life!

All the photos is taken by me.

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Thank you all for reading!

If you want to participate in this contest too, just tell me in the comments and I will add your name in this post!