A Letter to Loneliness | Gray Fragment

Hi, I've been wanting to write you these excerpts for a long time and I think the time has come to do it. I would like to express my doubts and concerns that have been going through my mind in the last few days. And yes, this relationship can no longer work and I know very well that you have also noticed it because I notice you are becoming more and more distant and we don't spend as much time together as we used to.

It has been a long time since the first time you and I met almost by chance and I have to tell you that I remember it as an old song that everyone hates, but no one dares to forget.

I have to admit that all this time at your side has not always been the best of my life. I admit that there were times when I wanted you with all my heart, but once I had you, the hangover you left in her filled me with sadness.

I have also come to hate you because of your jealousy, because you wanted me alone and all to yourself, because you overwhelmed me by wanting to be with me at all times. Don't you understand that you can't be everything in my life, that sooner or later this had to happen?

You helped me to know myself, to become stronger, to not need anything or anyone to be happy. You taught me to know how to deal with the blows that life gives us and to get up without paying attention to the wounds.

And now that I have learned from you everything you were able to instill in me, I think the time has come to put an end to this stage of my life and leave you behind. Do not try to come back because you will not be welcome, do not call me because I will have forgotten your name and do not look for me because for me you will no longer exist.

You may be wondering why I have made this sudden change, perhaps the rumors have already reached you and although you do not want to believe them, I confirm them: Yes, I am changing and I want to be part of a real love story, to feel it again as before, and this seems so wonderful to me that I am not going to let it go, not for you, not for anyone else.

It is possible that you, who are sensation and feeling, isolation and abandonment, enclosure and silence, you will not be able to understand the intricacies of a human heart, and for that I can't blame you. Your nature deprives you of the most wonderful things in life and forces you to beg from broken, sad and lonely hearts.

And this is a goodbye that I hope will never become a farewell. Forget me because as soon as I finish writing these words I will have already started to do it. Thank you for the good things you leave me but I hope our paths never meet again.

And now yes, goodbye loneliness.