Very well said @harlowjourney:

À very shabby reward indeed!

I'm so sorry to hear about your Mom but as you were not able to take care of her, you were actually forced to make that difficult decision and did what was best in your situation!
This is not an easy thing to deal with, so very hard to see our parents who once were physically strong and active, fade away like this.
I believe it was the strain of those first 3 months that affected my health; partly my fault as I was blogging till midnight and then being woken up through the night, so lack of sleep and the worry of what was happening, all caught up with me.
It's much easier now as I do get a good night's sleep as Mom at least uses the commode at night!
When I look back, the loss of my Dad was very sudden, and although a shock for us all, it was the best way to go as he was still active and fit; he would have hated to live like this!
Mom is very brave indeed.
Thank you for your thoughtful feedback, I really appreciate it and fully understand that I need to take care of myself too or else I can't help anyone!
My husband has been a type 1 diabetic since the age of 7 and needs me too, he's really amazing and has kept very well and is a blessing to many!