Hi, guys!
It seems that yesterday my aerial gymnastics did not affect my shoulder in any way, and this is very cool. I have a slight soreness, but it is rather pleasant. Evidence that I am doing physical activity again. I must say that yesterday, when I picked up the canvases, I almost burst into tears, that's how I missed them.
The coach behaves somewhat detached, realizes that it was completely her fault that I broke down and received a serious injury. My mother has repeatedly said that in any civilized country I could sue. But in any case, I do not want to spoil the relationship, I love what I do too much.
As I already told yesterday, for the first time I felt what the body is scared means. I had never had such a feeling before, I didn’t even know that it happens. But my knees are literally shaking, and this is not my psychological fear, but the fear of my body, which is sending me signals that something dangerous will happen now, and it already knows that it is dangerous. I seemed to agree with him, promising to do exactly as much as I can, no more, and allow myself to rest between tricks as much as necessary.
My coach said that in another studio, where there are eight-meter canvases, there is a foam pit. So even if you fall, you are not injured, because you fall very softly. When I recover, I want to go there and try to do the flip trick again, but this time in safe conditions.
Mom came yesterday and brought two huge boxes of art materials. I plan to do art therapy sessions and now I need them all. This will take place at a manic-depressive charity, a support group that I now go to.
The next meeting is on Friday, and I look forward to it. I really hope that everything will go as well as last time, I really liked it. It was a magical feeling when you understand that it is here with these people that you can talk about anything, and they will understand and not judge.
As I said yesterday, now I have a great chance to go to the hospital. I hope to avoid this for now, but if the condition continues to deteriorate, I will have to. In any case, I stay in touch with my doctor, and she monitors the process.
Take care of yourself and your loved ones:)
See you in the next post!
Love, Inber