find the courage

If you cannot find the courage to address the issues you should find the courage to stop posting altogether. As @traciyork says it looks like you're completely ignoring the issue. As @azircon says, trust will be difficult to find and as @livinguktaiwan says, we're looking forward to your explanation.

I think that says it all. If you have trouble understanding the tone of my comment feel free to pay someone to interpret for you, but some ownership would go a long way right now, however you find it. I think those grinding it out in an honest way on the blockchain deserve it.