Day one - could be worse

Hi guys!

So, the first day of a conditionally normal life. I must say right away that I did not cope with everything, but I started well. In the morning I was signed up for a vocal lesson, and immediately after it for aerial gymnastics. I only coped with the vocals, but I did quite well. Tomorrow I will upload the result to YouTube and I can share it with you. As I said, after a relatively long pause, for some reason I start to sing better, instead of singing worse. And so it happened today.

As always, along the way, I found something interesting and new in my city. I have long wanted to photograph these gnomes, and today I finally caught the moment when there was no one near them. The view of the canal was taken down, it is now almost covered with ice.

In fact, it seems to me that winter and extreme cold is one of the reasons why it is so hard for me to pull myself together right now. If you set several classes a day between them, there are still approximately forty-minute intervals between them, and these 40 minutes you don’t want to wander in the cold. Therefore, today I did not succeed with aerial gymnastics. I just realized that I had no more strength, and there were still forty minutes before training, and I was already freezing almost to death, and I still had to get home somehow. So I thought that nothing bad would happen if I came to practice on Thursday. Of course, I went to the administrator and paid for the lesson anyway, but I didn’t go to train.

In fact, right now I don't feel too good about it, and part of my mind still thinks that I could put pressure on myself and stay. But I already know that such antics do not end well. Tomorrow I have a meeting with a psychotherapist, and I would like to discuss why it is so that I want to do many things, but when it comes down to it, I always barely have enough energy. By the way, today is the first time I just took it and did not go to training, feeling that it was too much for today. Before the hospital, I would force myself.

Have you ever looked for a black cat in a black room? And I'm always looking for a white dog on white bedding :)

See you in the next post!
Love, Inber